Day Thirty-Four

DAYS UNTIL LENT IS OVER: 13

So it's been awhile, I haven't really written because I haven't really needed to vent about it. You know why? It's been very easy. Sure, I've missed some break ups and make ups, but I eventually hear about it, even if I am the last one to know. And of course, I was addicted to updating my status once every second and I still constantly think, "oh, that would be a good status" and sadly sometimes I think in third person, imagining it as my status. Okay, that is a pretty pathetic confession.

Nonetheless, I haven't written because giving up Facebook, truly giving it up for an extended amount of time, is a lot easier than most would think. Giving up Facebook for a few days, even a week, would be hard, because it's not enough time. I'm curious to see what I'll be like when this is over. How much will I go on Facebook?

Here's my prediction. I really truly believe that within a week I will be back to my old habits. I'll be on Facebook constantly, always changing my status, always commenting and "liking" everyone elses. And you know what? I really don't want to. I don't want to be on Facebook. I just went this entire spring break without going on Facebook once, and I really didn't miss it, except for the fact that I have a ton of picture I wish I could put up. Other than that...

So I've survived this long. I've got thirteen days left, and right now I know I can do it. I'm so proud of myself and I know this is pathetic, but this is a huge accomplishment for me. I'll probably be back here on Easter sooo catch ya later.

Day Seven.

DAYS UNTIL LENT IS OVER: 41

This is easy peezy. I can do this, it's not as tempting as I thought it'd be. But that may be because I'm needing a lot more sleep lately and Facebook is honestly not too appealing.

To say it in a nutshell, it has been quite the week. Everything seems to be piling on all at once, one bad thing after another, and all this stress makes my head ready to explode. I'm so looking forward to next year, forecasting was nice because I only checked two IB classes...and next year I'll be taking classes that I'll actually enjoy.

I wish I possessed the ability to express my feelings. I'm the type of person that keeps it all bottle inside till it starts to get to be too much. I wish I could be like Mersault! Oh, a Stranger reference. Oh geez.

Now if only my "off-week" at track will go away! It's frustrating how much faster I was two weeks ago and suddenly it's like I've never ran in my life. SO FRUSTRATING.

Day Six.

DAYS UNTIL LENT IS OVER: 42

How lame is it that I had to rely on Facebook to be able to socialize? Hello, have I even heard of a phone? I think we're relying way to much on cyberspace to communicate when it is so much more intimate to talk on the phone. When I say intimate, you're actually speaking to that person, instead of articulating a well-crafted "wall post". So, that said, I should not need Facebook to be the way I can socialize, when my telephone is sitting on the desk, right in front of me.

Day Five

DAYS UNTIL LENT IS OVER: 43

I. NEED. FACEBOOK.

sort of. at least school is tomorrow so i can talk to people then...

Day Three/Four

DAYS UNTIL LENT IS OVER: 44

So tomorrow is Sunday, which technically is not a day in the Lenten season, meaning, whatever you gave up, you can do. Which means, I could go on facebook in an hour and fourty minutes. But I think that would defeat the purpose that I'm trying to make, don't you agree? It's more than just giving up something for Lent. It's a test of willpower. Lent is just a convienent excuse for me to do this. Oh, and the fact that whatever I give up is supposed to bring me closer to God. We'll see.

The past couple of days have been absolutely insane. Indescribeable. I don't even know what think of the situation, so I'd rather believe it not to be true. The point is, things are going to change, and rapidly. And I may want to depend on Facebook to keep me going. You see, it's not Facebook that I'm addicted to, it's what Facebook brings. Friends. Social interaction. Support in times of need. And I believe this is a time of need.

Anyway, I have to be honest and say that this whole giving up Facebook thing is quite easier than I thought it would be, though I'm only a few days in so knock on wood? I hypothesize that I'll be struggling for it next week, because I have gone a few days without it, though never more. So, like I said, we'll see.

Day Two.

DAYS UNTIL LENT IS OVER: 46

Today was somewhat easy. Went on Myspace to cure the itch but Myspace is boring. It's funny how addicted I was with it...until, um, some circumtances last year led me to not appreciate it as much.

This hasn't been the greatest week. I've been so off when it comes to track, I don't know, it feels like I haven't ran in years even though I've been training the past few months. It's extremely frustrating, and I hope it passes. That feeling is also mixed in with the annoyance I feel everyday at practice now. I need motivation to keep training, because right now I have none.

Anyway, this is about my Facebook addiction, not my current state of mind. Everything is just really horrible right now and I'm waiting for it to all mend itself. School is more than I can handle, and it doesn't help when I absolutely hate the subjects.

I need some major motivation to help me get through the next few weeks.

Day One.

DAYS UNTIL LENT IS OVER: 47 (It's Ash Wednesday!)

It's Ash Wednesday, I just got back from mass, I'm on the computer to blog my english journal...and opening up my internet browser and having it take me to Google makes me quite sad.


What in the world have I gotten myself into?
I can't do this. I can't resist temptation.
I can do this. I can resist temptation.

The Journey Begins...tomorrow.

DAYS UNTIL LENT IS OVER: 48

So as I am preparing for what might be the hardest thing I've ever put on myself, I decided to create a blog so that everyone can feel my pain. For those who do not know, I am a self proclaimed Facebook Addict. I literally will be on Facebook for hours on end, doing absolutely nothing. The convinience of Facebook makes it all the more addicting, with notifications instantly popping up without having to refresh the page. Sadly, I knew what I had in store when I was *ahem* forced to make a Facebook just one year ago, and yet, I let it happen.

Amount of homework has steadily decreased as the amount of time it takes to get homework somewhat accomplished has increased. I've always been a procrastinator, but not to this degree. And as most of you know, procrastination and IB do not mix. In fact, I should be already starting my homework, but, I'm on Facebook, and homework probably will not start for another hour.

Thinking about everything that I'll be able to accomplish in those hours will hopefully be enough motivation to keep me going. In fact, I sort of want to start tonight, because The Biggest Loser is on in like an hour and a half and I have about 45 minutes worth of homework, and with Facebook, it will likely stretch out to three hours.

So here the journey begins. I'm not sure who I will be when I come out of this, but maybe this will make me appreciate Facebook, and life outside of Facebook, all the more. The thing that has me the most concerned about is my need for cyber social interaction, and it'll kill me to have things happen on Facebook without me knowing. What if I get into a relationship before Lent is over? I mean, it's never, ever official until it's on Facebook!

hope this brings entertainment, and self realization to you. perhaps this will help you figure out whether you are a Facebook addict like I am. Oh, Lent...no meat tomorrow, and I'm debating if I want to fast or not for Ash Wednesday. Maybe not.