Day Three/Four

DAYS UNTIL LENT IS OVER: 44

So tomorrow is Sunday, which technically is not a day in the Lenten season, meaning, whatever you gave up, you can do. Which means, I could go on facebook in an hour and fourty minutes. But I think that would defeat the purpose that I'm trying to make, don't you agree? It's more than just giving up something for Lent. It's a test of willpower. Lent is just a convienent excuse for me to do this. Oh, and the fact that whatever I give up is supposed to bring me closer to God. We'll see.

The past couple of days have been absolutely insane. Indescribeable. I don't even know what think of the situation, so I'd rather believe it not to be true. The point is, things are going to change, and rapidly. And I may want to depend on Facebook to keep me going. You see, it's not Facebook that I'm addicted to, it's what Facebook brings. Friends. Social interaction. Support in times of need. And I believe this is a time of need.

Anyway, I have to be honest and say that this whole giving up Facebook thing is quite easier than I thought it would be, though I'm only a few days in so knock on wood? I hypothesize that I'll be struggling for it next week, because I have gone a few days without it, though never more. So, like I said, we'll see.

Day Two.

DAYS UNTIL LENT IS OVER: 46

Today was somewhat easy. Went on Myspace to cure the itch but Myspace is boring. It's funny how addicted I was with it...until, um, some circumtances last year led me to not appreciate it as much.

This hasn't been the greatest week. I've been so off when it comes to track, I don't know, it feels like I haven't ran in years even though I've been training the past few months. It's extremely frustrating, and I hope it passes. That feeling is also mixed in with the annoyance I feel everyday at practice now. I need motivation to keep training, because right now I have none.

Anyway, this is about my Facebook addiction, not my current state of mind. Everything is just really horrible right now and I'm waiting for it to all mend itself. School is more than I can handle, and it doesn't help when I absolutely hate the subjects.

I need some major motivation to help me get through the next few weeks.

Day One.

DAYS UNTIL LENT IS OVER: 47 (It's Ash Wednesday!)

It's Ash Wednesday, I just got back from mass, I'm on the computer to blog my english journal...and opening up my internet browser and having it take me to Google makes me quite sad.


What in the world have I gotten myself into?
I can't do this. I can't resist temptation.
I can do this. I can resist temptation.

The Journey Begins...tomorrow.

DAYS UNTIL LENT IS OVER: 48

So as I am preparing for what might be the hardest thing I've ever put on myself, I decided to create a blog so that everyone can feel my pain. For those who do not know, I am a self proclaimed Facebook Addict. I literally will be on Facebook for hours on end, doing absolutely nothing. The convinience of Facebook makes it all the more addicting, with notifications instantly popping up without having to refresh the page. Sadly, I knew what I had in store when I was *ahem* forced to make a Facebook just one year ago, and yet, I let it happen.

Amount of homework has steadily decreased as the amount of time it takes to get homework somewhat accomplished has increased. I've always been a procrastinator, but not to this degree. And as most of you know, procrastination and IB do not mix. In fact, I should be already starting my homework, but, I'm on Facebook, and homework probably will not start for another hour.

Thinking about everything that I'll be able to accomplish in those hours will hopefully be enough motivation to keep me going. In fact, I sort of want to start tonight, because The Biggest Loser is on in like an hour and a half and I have about 45 minutes worth of homework, and with Facebook, it will likely stretch out to three hours.

So here the journey begins. I'm not sure who I will be when I come out of this, but maybe this will make me appreciate Facebook, and life outside of Facebook, all the more. The thing that has me the most concerned about is my need for cyber social interaction, and it'll kill me to have things happen on Facebook without me knowing. What if I get into a relationship before Lent is over? I mean, it's never, ever official until it's on Facebook!

hope this brings entertainment, and self realization to you. perhaps this will help you figure out whether you are a Facebook addict like I am. Oh, Lent...no meat tomorrow, and I'm debating if I want to fast or not for Ash Wednesday. Maybe not.